Is This the End?

After nearly 2 weeks, I recieved a very short email from Her

Focusing on profession

Not personal

All the best

I don't know what to make of this. I can only hope she is not calling everything off. I had so mu8ch hope about where out relationship could be heading. This is a real dampener to my hopes and dreams. I realise she is busy overseas and do not want to bother her with my feelings at the moment. So, for now, all I could do was reply back to her email, begging her to give me a chance to talk to her when she returns.

I will always respect her decision to pursue her professional career. However, I just feel that for all the dedication, devotion and diligence I had shown over the last couple of months, I at least deserved a chance to talk to her about it.

I cannot express how sad I feel about this ending this way.

Missing Her

It would not come as a surprise to anybody that I am missing her dearly. After I made contact with her for the very first time, this is the longest time I have had to endure without any correspondence with her. From the heights of serving her in person, I am now going through the depths of total isolation from her :(

After Thoughts

My two days with Miss were more than I could have hoped for. I never in my wildest dreams had imagined that I would have spent such intimate moments with her on our first meeting. I really am grateful to her for trusting me to such an extent.

The most obviously memorable moments were  when I was allowed to give her a massage and an orgasm to top it off. The time in the shower is another memory I will always remember. It has been a long time fanatasy of mine to serve my Dominant lady in this manner.

 The most defining moments were the instances where she showed her dominance over me as highlighted in this post. Of these the most profound incident was the one on our way to dinner when she ordered me to kiss her feet in public. I felt so weak and intimidated by her at that moment. She was pushing me beyond my limits there yet I could not just walk away from her. I was totally under her spell and I could only bow my head in submission to her and beg her to not make me do it.

Whilst all the above were great and went a long way in fulfiling my long held submissive desires, what I cherished most about my time with Miss were some of the vanilla activities we did while she was in town. It is my hope to serve a Dominant lady as my long term partner and for this to happen I must enjoy vanilla life with her.

She always maintained her dominance and authority over me, but at the same time she always allowed me to express my opinions and also respected them at the same time. Of course whenever she thought I was even slightly out of line, she was very quick to put me in my place.

I cannot wait to see her again. After spending these two days with her, I can see so much potential for our relationship going forward. Not only do I wish to serve her as I did, I would hope for this to go so much futher.

Over the course of this blog I have expressed how I have had desired to be cuckolded, however have always been afraid to actually bring these desires to reality. Having met her I know I am now ready to take my first baby steps into cuckolding. I just hope she sees this potential. Like me, I hope she would like to take things further as well.

Bye Bye Miss :(

Date of occurrence: 17-Apr-12

We woke up at 4 AM so that we could it to the airport by 5 AM. Her bags were almost packed and I helped her get ready. One last time, I kissed her feet and helped her into her shoes.

At the airport, I gave her a hug and she was off. This ended two most amazing days. I really hope I see her again soon. She will be overseas for almost 6 weeks and I will have minimum contact with her. This lack of contact is going to be incredibly hard for me. But I know I have to be patient and endure it.

I am goig to miss her dearly. Cant wait for her to return.

Miss Visiting Day 2 - Masturbation

Date of occurrence: 17-Apr-12

After a busy day, Miss was now tired and getting some sleep in my bedroom. I was to spend the night on the couch in the living room. I was very happy with the way things had gone over the last two days. Despite a few errors, overall I thought I did a good job of serving her and making her stay comfortable and enjoyable.

I had not cum in about a week and thoughts about the intimate moments we had shared; massage, shower, foot worship etc was making me very horny. I took the panties Miss had kindly gifted me earlier and wore them on my head. I had the crotch of her panties covering my nose. As I lay on the couch naked, I inhaled her scent from the crotch of her panties and masturbated.

While I shamlessly masturbated, I thought about all the significant incidents that transpired over the last 2 days. There was also a real possibility (unlikely though) that Miss would walk out into the living room and catch me in the act.

I do not know how she would react. Whether she would chastise me or humiliate me or perhaps just be amused at the sight of me masturbating wearing her panties on my head. At that point I was beyond caring and very horny. In a few moments I had one of the most amazing and emotionally satisfying orgasms. I wish I could have shared it with Miss in some way.

Miss Visiting Day 2 - Where I Belong

Date of occurrence: 17-Apr-12

Her flight was in another 7 hours and she wanted to get a good rest before the flight. I requested her if I could take a picture of me kissing her feet. This is probably the proudest moment of my life as a sub.

This is truly where I belong.

Miss Visiting Day 2 - Punishment

Date of occurrence: 17-Apr-12 

I had recently ordered a flogger for Miss to gift to her when I met her. I took this opportunity to go down on my knees and present it to her. She took and ordered me to get on all fours. She pulled my pants down exposing my buttocks. As she sat on my back, she made me recount all my errors over the last two days. For each error she gave me stroke of the flogger. This punishment was more symbolic rather than painful. It was designed to teach me how to be a better sub to her as opposed to making me suffer.

She also recounted some of the good work I did and gave me a pat on the head as well as a pat on the bum for each.

I am listing my errors and areas of improvement below.

1) Bad directions for fish market on day one leading to waste of time and frustration for Miss

2) Not instantly obeying her when ordered to eat the fish on day two

3) Although she got a nice professional pedicure, it would have been nice to do this inhouse. Like my massage skills, I should aquire skills and tools to give her a manicure and pedicure.