Naturally I called her back but couldn't get through so I replied to her text.
3:00 PM
Miss: called
got voicemail
meet me early am?
do you drive?
4:45 PM
Me: Sorry...missed your call. Was in a meeting. Do excited you are coming to 'city' :) yes, I drive. What time will you be here?
A couple of hours later....
6:10 PM
Miss: morning again
how early can you do?
At 6:22 PM I called Miss to sort out a time to meet. She answered only to tell me she couldn't talk at the moment. So I text her back with my preference.
6:26 PM
Me: I get home at 2.30 am tonight. So around 10 would be good. Does that suit you? Please call me later if you can. Just txt before calling so I will be ready.
At
7:05 PM for the next 10 mins we had thins exchange.
Miss: too late
Me: I can meet earlier. Whatever time suits you.10 was just a preference. What is the latest you can do? Are you spending the day in 'city' it just transit?
Me: Are you spending day in 'city' or just transit?
Miss: not spending a day
i have an appointment at 8 am
Miss: but missed connecting train so may not even make my flight
Me: :( hope you make it. Were you looking to meet after your appointment or before?
Miss: before
Me: Sure...I can do that. Just let me know where.
Miss: wouldnt park though
could prob go w to appt
Miss: airport
Miss: if i make flight
battery flat
Me: Sorry...I am confused. You'd like me to take you to the appt or airport or both? Or have I got it all wrong?
Then there was nothing until 3 hours later 10:15 PM
Miss: i can take train in
Me: Not sure what you mean. Are you in 'city' now?
Me: Trying to call you. Can't get through. What time would you like to meet & where. It would be nice to know in advance so I can be ready.
There was to be no more communication last night.
With that last message I went home after work with a sinking feeling that we were not going to meet. I was a little bewildered at the lack of clarity in the communication. Over several text messages and attempts to speak on the phone I was unable to get time-lines of her visit. I still did not know when she would arrive in 'city' and how much time she would spend. Owing to this lack of detail I was unable to suggest the most appropriate time to meet. This made me feel quite frustrated to the point it got me upset.
I felt upset because I couldn't help but feel that there wasn't enough information forthcoming on her part to plan our meeting properly. Yes, it was her that first suggested we meet and I am very thankful for that. However, I felt that were there more detail given to me in the communication, we could have planned it better.
Early in the morning today at 7.30 AM I received a message confirming what I feared last night
Miss: sigh
maybe next time
again
Me: :( you dont have any time after your appointment?
Miss: no
Me: Maybe we'll be 3rd time lucky. The chocolates are still waiting :)
Me: So am I Miss :)
Miss: next time will probably be normal notice
this time was a day
normal is less than 2 hours
Miss: ciao
Me: Next time I only get 2hr notice to see you?
I really did not know what to make of the comment about 2 hr notice and again felt quite confused. Anyway, I did not dwell on it too much.
At 9.20 AM
Miss: leaving 'city' now
next visit at the earliest 6 weeks
After this I was able to catch up on some much needed sleep. After I woke up I felt a lot more composed about my feelings. Going over the time stamps of our text messages, I was able to come to a conclusion that Miss possibly arrived in 'city' after 10 PM last night. I would not finish work until after midnight, so there was no possibility to meet then. She had an early appointment at 8 AM. Even though she was considering meeting before the appointment I realise that would be pushing it. Going by her last text at 9.20 AM today it is evident that she really did not have time after the appointment.
Having come to this conclusion I felt that Miss was on a very tight schedule and therefore meeting up was indeed almost possible. I felt a lot better after this. However, I still feel that if this were clearly communicated to me instead of me having to draw conclusions, I would never felt frustrated or upset. Instead I would have been very understanding and mature about it as I am now.
Anyway, I am glad to be over those negative feelings so I can now go back to doing things that make Miss happy. She has given me a lot of information about things that interest her. I need to process all this and document it in an easily accessible format. Miss has made me responsible for researching performances, shows, festivals, exhibitions etc that are taking place in cities that she visits. I am to find such events and advise her of timing/place etc so she may make a decision on whether she would like to attend or not.
There is more to my duties than just looking for opportunities of entertainment. I am also to look out for stuff she enjoys indulging in (massages, spas etc) and then other things that help her get through day to day work and make her life easier. I hope to do all of this and make her happy with my service.
Again, my mind casts back to the point of communication. To serve her well and in a timely manner I would need to know more details about her trips especially with regards to destinations and timing. I do realise she is extremely busy and sometimes unable to take the time for lengthy chat. Therefore, perhaps I am over reacting. Unfortunately it is just how I felt at that moment.
It took me lot of deliberation to decide to post these feelings here. Eventually I figured that not all our interactions will be positive. Like any relation, there will be some unpleasant situations. It is important to express these so they can remedied if possible. Miss wanted this blog to be about my feelings and thoughts. Therefore, I thought it was appropriate to post this here.
Very early in our interactions we decided to base this relation on mutual respect. So, I hope we can discuss this in a sensible manner and strengthen what we already have today.
I am still locked up since wed night. I wonder when Miss would allow me release.
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